I really don’t expect anyone to comprehend
what I am going through.
And the last I need now is sympathy.
But for someone who has seen me
from healthy to sick,
to marry me and
slept next to me for 3 years,
the least I expect is understanding
and not condemnation
nor comparison.

So what if there are people who are
worse off than I am?
So what if there people who are
suffering more than I am?
I am not them and they are not me.
We all grew up in a different environment.
We are all blessed in different aspects.
I am blessed with a family
who provides and
thus gives me the luxury to rest.
I am blessed with a family
who spoils me rotten.
Stop telling me to get a job
just because there are people
who are suffering more than I am are working.
Who are you to tell me to get a job
when the people providing are not
and don’t want me to?

What really puzzles me is
why can’t you see when the rest could?
My mum could tell a trend.
My friends could.
But you, who sleep next to me, couldn’t.

And now, I am wondering,
you couldn’t or
you just want me to work
so that you need not pay me
maintenance????