Time really flies,
it was like not too long ago
we were celebrating Christmas
with your family.
I came to realised it’s been a year.

After all, I guess I really don’t miss you at all.
Didn’t even notice that you were not around.
But I realised I do the miss
the Christmas shopping for your family.

I came to realised
the hardest to let go
in this whole marriage
is actually your family.
Even though, I must admit,
I do not understand them
most of the time.
Nor could they understand me.

I miss the weekly dinner.
I miss Mom’s cooking.
I miss her soups.
I miss Dad’s long history lessons.
I miss bringing Dad to the doctors.
I miss getting caught between them.

Oddly, I wish I don’t have to
liaise with you ever again.
But I do wish to visit them.

If you were to ask me if I hate you,
I would say ‘no’.
Honestly, I don’t have much feeling left
towards you but just memories of the past.
And whenever I spoke of you,
it’s like narrating a story
or sharing an experience.
Some mistook it as I still miss you.
But honestly,
I don’t.
In fact,
I am happy with things the way they are now.

Most people asked me.
“If he were to repent and come back,
will you take him back?”
Not saying you will,
but guess that doesn’t matter anymore,
as I am sure I don’t want to go back
to the life when I was with you.
Don’t get me wrong.
It’s not about forgiveness here.
I came to realised
I was not happy
when I was with you.

And after what ever happened
since that day,
You have made me lost all respects for you.
It’s no longer about what you did.
It’s more on what you are doing
or not doing.
The way you have been
handling the whole thing
made me truly despise you.
I can no longer
look at you
the same way as before.

On the other hand,
I truly have to Thank You.
Due to your incompetence,
I am more than happy
you are no longer in my life.
And I truly Thank God for this.