If you say you didn't know, I feel sorry for you.
Now that even the blind and deaf knows,
I feel you deserve it.
If you married her, I understand you.
It's all about responsibilities,
I feel you have no choice.
If you enjoy being trampled all over,
don't ever grumble or feel short changed.
For you have had your own enjoyment.
Now, what are you thinking?

You told me you are a family man.
What is a family with no love?
You told me you want to go home to someone.
What is the point of rushing home to someone
when this someone doesn't want you?
When this someone doesn't love you?
When this someone is just using you?
Won't it be better to go Vietnam
and get yourself a wife?
At least you saved someone from poverty.
As least you are being treated like a king.

You don't apply the things you have told me.
Now, I wonder if I should have listened to you.
Now, I wonder if I should have given him a chance,
Afterall, I am still married to him and we made a vow.
Why were you so angry?
Why did you think I should leave?
Despite the hurt,
at least, then, he still respond to me.
Is betrayal worse than an unspoken deal?

It's so frustrating to pull someone out from the pitfall,
when this someone chooses to jump right back in,
when this someone is already halfway out.
Where was she when you needed her the most?
Was she the one who pushed you in?
Or was it yourself?
Was she the one who pulled you out?
Or was it yourself?
Or was it your friends?

It's your life, it's your choice.
One day when she leaves again,
and when you are really alone,
don't blame anyone,
don't ask where are your friends.
If you still have friends to catch you from the fall,
please be thankful for their love and patience,
please be thankful for God sent Angels.

As a friend, I pray that you have happiness.
As a friend, I pray that I am a skeptic.
As a friend, I pray that you are blessed.
As a friend, I pray for you.

I have finally understood,
why women go for 5 Cs.
Since most men can't stay faithful,
it's better to buy insurance.
At least, when they are together,
she gets some luxury.
At least, when they ended up in divorce,
she gets some money.
I was so stupid.
I believed in love.
I believed my man was different.

I have came to realised,
most women here are more capable than their men.
That's why divorce statistics is going up.
Women here are good at multi task.
Women here are good at making money.
Women here are good at taking stress.
Women here are generally wiser.
Maybe it's the culture here.
So why do women here need men?

So my conclusion is,
women here get married
either because they are stupid like me,
or because they are lazy.

It was today, 4 years ago, we said "I DO!"
We were happy and looking forward to our new life together.
Everyone was there to congratulate us.
Everyone was saying how compatible we were.
And I really believed "Till death do us apart."

Today, 4 years later, you have moved out.
You are telling her how you missed her.
You are telling her how you want to be with her.
And you want to be alone.

Today, 4 years later, I am still staying here.
I am telling everyone how you've betrayed me.
I am telling everyone how you've hurt me.
And I am alone.

What have gone wrong?
I have no idea.
Was it you?
Was it me?
Or was it just God's will?
I have no idea.

Am I angry?
I don't know.
Are you happy?
I don't care.
I just want you to clear your things in the house.
I just want to move on with my life.
I just believe God has better plans for me.

Happy 4th Anniversary?!

I wonder if I should call you.
I wonder if I should see you.
I wonder if I still have that special place in your heart.
It's been so many years, so many years...
Remember when I was 7 and you were 9.
Remember when I was 13, in the school canteen.
Remember when my friend called you.
Remember when we kept bumming into each other.
Remember when you called me "bao bei".
Remember when we were apart.
I always know how you feel without you having to tell me.
I always feel your presence without having to see you.
I always understand you when no one else could.
I can't forget how you convinced me to be your girlfriend.
I can't forget how you gave me flowers.
I can't forget how you made me feel so special.
I can't forget that last look you gave me.
I miss you... where are you?
I miss you... where are you?
I miss you... where are you?
I just can't forget how you loved me, so special and gentle...
I can't... just can't...

Don't know what started me on this. Hmm... Maybe it's a good way for me to express myself, a place to put down my thoughts and my feelings. Not good at writing either. Hope this will improve that too. Ha...
Never kept a diary to date. Always afraid someone will find it, read it and use it against me. And now, I share my little world with the whole entire world. Irony of life.